Brandon Jack Kyles was born 5 weeks early on the 19th 
July 2006 weighing 5 pounds 12 and a half ounces. He 
was absolutely gorgeous and we couldnt believe he was 
finally here! 

We were lucky enough to have 3 wonderful hours with him before he got ill, we will remember everything about our time together forever. I got to give him his first feed and he even gave his daddy a little smile!  We then noticed he was struggling to breathe so we called in the doctor, she examined him but she told us he was alright and that she would come back in an hour just to check up on him but  around 20 minutes after she left he was getting worse and i had to call her back in and she agreed that he did in fact need some help breathing so she took him to the NICU. She assured us he would be alright and he was just needing a little bit of oxygen to help him as he was a bit premature. 

We eventually got to go along to the NICU at 10:30pm to see him, he was on c-pap but we were told he was stable. The doctor suggested that I was to go back to my room for some sleep and his daddy go home aswell, so thats what we did as we knew our baby was in good hands but at 3:30am i was woken by one of the midwives and was told that i was to go along to NICU as he was getting worse. 

For a while it looked like he was just getting worse but then they tried him on another machine that helped with his breathing and gave him more antibiotics, we were then told that he had stablised and things started to look better so they made us up a room next door to the ward he was in but we were soon woken and told that we were going to lose him so we called our families who came to the hospital and we had him baptised. After that he was passed to me and Scott, the doctor had her stethoscope on his chest and after a couple of minutes gave us a little nod which meant he had died. Our baby was gone.  Having Brandon was the best thing that ever happened to us but to lose him was definately the worst.


Sleep tight baby Brandon, mummy and daddy love you 
very much and not a day will go by where you are not in 
our thoughts. You were just to precious for this world. You are missed every day, love mummy and daddy x x x x x x x









                                

  We Thought Of You Today 

We thought of you today,
But that is nothing new
We thought of you yesterday
And will tomorrow, too.

We think of you in silence
And make no outward show.
For what it meant to lose you
Only those who love you know.

Remembering you is easy,
We do it everyday.
It's the heartache of losing you
That will never go away. 
             

I Am Still A Mummy

I am still a Mummy; I was a Mummy from the start.
What makes me a Mummy is that feeling in my heart.
Pregnant I was, there was a baby inside me.
For some Mummy's all it takes is to know, they have planted that seed.
There is a bond that takes place from the moment that you know.
Inside of your body someone special has started to grow.
My baby didn't make it; he is in Heaven up above.
In my heart I'm still his Mummy, I am filled with endless love.
Something happens to a woman when her seedling starts to grow.
Unless you have felt these feelings it is impossible to know.
He meant the world to me and I will never be the same.
All I need is for you to listen when I wish to say his name.
He may be gone but he's not forgotten I miss him each and every day.
Could you imagine that it would be any other way?
What kind of Mummy would I be if I forgot my son?
I had planned my whole life around him, all the great things we would have done.
I may have another child, possibly another two.
There is something I know for certain, he will always be my first child, my son, and I his Mummy too.

SPECIAL ANGEL IN HEAVEN


There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where we wanted him
but where God wanted him to be. 

He was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though he is in Heaven
he isn't very far. 

He touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do. 
We would've held him every minute
if the end we only knew.

So we send this special message
to the Heavens up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send him all our love. 


Lots of Love Brandon, From Mummy and Daddy x x x x x x







~~*Please feel free to light a candle in memory of our beautiful baby boy Brandon.*~~

                

                     

Although you think i've gone,

and you feel your hearts are breaking

You think i've left you both,

In a world you see as taking.

I know you feel so cheated

from the little time we had,

but this isnt what i want

to make you feel so sad.

Please believe in me

You dont have to let me go,

I live on in your hearts

So much more than you can know.

I know its hard to understand

But one day you'll know im right,

You needn't stumble in the dark

You can always use my light.

Please believe that im still with you

and all these words are true,

You once looked after me

Now im looking after you...... 
                      
  
         

Beautiful One

Beautiful One

You came to us to dry our tears,

To ease the pain of the last few years.

Beautiful One we did not know

Our time would be so short, You would have to go.

All we can do is ask ourselves why

Our beautiful son had to die?

There’s no limit to love, no limit to pain.

Beautiful One we will see you again,

And when that time comes

We know you’ll be there,

To open those gates and say Mummy and Daddy are here.

This time the tears will be of joy and not pain.

The three of us can be a family again.

We can hold you, kiss you, Surround you with love,

And finally forget that sad day

You were taken from us.

Beautiful One we want you to know

You are our firstborn child and we love you so. 





            

When you lose a parent, you lose your past.
When you lose a spouse, you lose your present...
But when you lose a child, you lose your future.

A wife who loses her husband is called a widow.
A husband who loses his wife is called a widower.
A child who loses their parents is called an orphan.
There is no word for a parent who loses a child...
That's how awful the loss is. 




A FATHER'S GRIEF

It must be very difficult
To be a man in grief
Since "Men don't cry" and "Men are strong"
No tears can bring relief

It must be very difficult
To stand up to the test
And field calls and visitors
So that she can get some rest

They always ask if she's alright
And what shes going through
But seldom take his hand and ask
"My friend, how are you?"

He hears her cry in the night
And thinks his heart will break
He dries her tears and comforts her
But "Stays strong" for her sake

It must be very difficult
To start each day anew
And try to be so very brave
Because he lost his baby too 



My Dad is a Survivor

My dad is a survivor 
which is no surprise to me.
He's always been like a lighthouse
that helps you cross a stormy sea.

But, I walk with my dad each day
to lift him when he's down.
I wipe the tears he hides from others;
He cries when no one's around.

I watch him sit up late at night
with my picture in his hand.
He cries as he tries to grieve alone,
and wishes he could understand.

My dad is like a tower of strength.
He's the greatest of them all!
But, there are times when he needs to cry...
Please be there when he falls.

Hold his hand or pat his shoulder...
And tell him it's okay.
Be his strength when he's sad,
Help him mourn in his own way.

Now, as I watch over my precious dad
from the Heavens up above...
I'm so proud that he's a survivor...
And, I can still feel his love. 

Don't cry for Me Daddy"
Don't cry for me Daddy,
I'm right here.
Although you can't see me
I see your tears.
I visit you often,
I go to work with you each day,
And when it's time for you
to close your eyes ,
On your pillow is where I lay.
I hold your hand &
stroke your hair,
And whisper in your ear.
If you're sad today Daddy,
Remember, I am here.

God took me home,
this we know is true.
But you'll always be My Daddy
Even though I'm not with you.
We will never be apart,
For everytime you think of me,
Please know I'm in your Heart..........



                    
Brandon sending angel love & kisses to Mummy & Daddy

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